Twisted, mangled, broken beyond repair
Tattered, frayed, thrown into despair
All because of you...
You blew into my life
So sudden, so unexpectedly
It felt so good
To have found my other half
Things were great
My life was perfect
I thought I'd had it made
The HE came along
Once again
The One- that had hurt you so badly before
And changed everything
The fear, the jealousy, the RAGE
Sick, cold, untiring
It was cruel...what you did
But it wasn't entirely your fault
He manipulated you into doing what he wanted
He made you rip out my heart and spin it like a yo-yo
I'm not a toy, and I REFUSE to play this game
I had all I could do to restrain myself
To contain the monster inside, tearing and clawing to get out
Out of the cold dark world your absence has banished me to
You were the greatest thing that ever happened to me
And yet, it hurt me so badly
You tore out my very soul, and showed it to me
The depression, the agony
You're beautiful, yet deadly
When you were near, I felt so light, so different
When you touched me, I never wanted to let you go
And when you kissed me, you had me. I belonged to you.
I never thought it was possible
This pain was unlike any other I've ever felt
Now here I lay, on the floor, behind a closed door
I can't hear, I can't see
I can't taste, I can't smell
I feel nothing
Wrenched from this world
I wish I could crawl under my bed and die...
Ringing. I hear a sudden ringing
It's you. You sound so sad
I care, and at the same time, I don't
I still feel horrible. Sick and twisted
We talk for so long, it feels like eternity
We come to an agreement...we're going to try again
The depression subsides a little
I'll forgive you eventually, but it will take a while
To trust you as I did before, will take a while too
So ready, so willing
I have to try again...WE have to try again
The wave of emotion is overwhelming
My mind races with thoughts of you, of us
Who knows what the future will throw at us?
But maybe this is a test. A test of how strong our relationship is
Blackness. I turn out the light, and lay down
My thouhgts flash through my mind
I long to hold you, to touch you, to kiss you
I want to feel your touch, the comfort of your presence
The feeling of your arms around me
Just the two of us
You,
And I,
It's so exhausting...these thoughts
There's so many
And then, it all stops spinning
It becomes so quiet, so peaceful
I wish you were here, to be beside me
Things will get better, I know this much
I know it will get brighter
As hard as it may be, I will love you once again
These waves of emotion, these millions of thoughts
They are of you, for you...all because of you
Submitted: December 16th, 2004
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